Poem: Anxiety

A-N-X-I-E-T-Y By Fatima 

My inside is full of sadness, a heavy load indeed

I have had this feeling before

Now it’s back to visit me once more

Didn’t call, didn’t text, didn’t send any warning 

I find myself in this place yet again wondering will I ever stop mourning

Why is it that you insist on returning

Eyes full of water

Mind full of chaos 

Face blank

but underneath

I scream

I miss her, I wanna hear her call my name, I want to sit with her on the porch

One day I'll be with her forever & More

I stare in the distance with utter stillness on the out

but inside I am trying to run far far away from this feeling that is trying to lead me astray

It’s scary, it breaks me down

steals my joy in the blink of an eye

It’s back

I didn't miss you... go away...Your filthy 

In me you don't belong

Don’t you know we DON"T get along...

I can’t accept you but I can’t flee you either

He said the journey would not be easy

 So I rebuke you in the Name...

In the Name of JESUS

It’s happening...Anxiety

Wondering how will things turn out

Like before...I hope NOT...but I have no control

Like before I’m backed into a corner

Like before I’m desperate for help

In and out I breathe...Deep as the Ocean

Heavy as a Ton of bricks, My heart pumping pain

I don’t like this game...

I’m angry, I’m sad, I’m hurt, I feel bad

I’m sweating, I’m nauseous, my heart is pounding, I can’t breath, I’m shaking...

I scream...I cry...I shut down

And you may ask why...well Panic causes Anxiety and together they cause Attacks???

Love My Mama

Ma, I know your in a marvelous holding place into GOD raises you up and I met you in the Clouds
Oh what a day that will be
I have repented, I have accepted, I have believed
And I know it's GOD we will meet in the sky
I hope I don't bother you to much
By constantly calling your name
But Ma I miss you and it's nothing that will stand in my way from wrapping my arms
around you TIGHT
I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU SO
In My Heart You Stay and your Name Stay on My Lips
But as you would Sing
"I'm coming up
On the Rough Side
Ooooof the Mountain
And I'm Doooooing my best
To Make it In"

I Must Hold to GOD; His Powerful Hand...
♡LOVE MY MAMA♡